The official reports
weren’t exactly accurate as to what happened. The doctor and his experiments
dove deeper into the pseudoscience based on the occult beliefs of Doctor
Inglehart rather than the hard biology that I and the other students had
expected. We were mostly pre-med students in our final years just before our
entrances into the programs each of us had picked out. I had been the
exception; I was a psychologist with a thesis in the work of criminal
institutions and how they break people. The story we were fed was that we would
be working with the patients Doctor Inglehart had been working with for years.
This was the first time students had been allowed to go to his clinic which had
been on the edge of scientific advancement and insight which all four of us
were ready to be a part of, but then we saw what had been happening.
Doctor Inglehart had been, at least
up until I saw what he was doing, a great hero of mine. A survivor of the
childhood atrocities of the Holocaust and an immigrant and refugee to the
Americas when only a child, he had always been proud of his history and told
everyone who would listen of what happened. How when only six he had seen the
medical experiments which his Jewish ancestry had been seen by the Nazi
scientists to be perfect for them, since as Inglehart had said, “We had been as
close to humans as they could possibly believe.”
When we all exited the bus which had
picked us up, the first thing we saw was the isolation. The prison which
Inglehart worked as a part of had made me sick when I first saw it. The
panoptical set up gave me an intuition which, even as I think back to it now,
makes me feel as if I have to turn over every object and look at each of the
dark corners in my room for the cameras which was being used to make us feel
uneasy.
The octagonal ring of the first six
floors gave rise to the grey obelisk which rose only twice as high as the ring.
At the top of the obelisk was a glass tip which fed back into the, upon closer
review, octagonal walls of the tower. Each level had glass looking out to the
surroundings. At this point I almost threw up. Once I had the realization that
someone maybe watching me at any time forced me to walk more upright and with a
rigidity which my mother would be proud.
Doctor Inglehart’s diminutive but
powerful figure was there to welcome us at the door of the prison. Above him,
the desert’s brightness reflected on the words “Sum ego
factum est mors exterminatore mundorum”.
I am become Death, the destroyer
of worlds.
The wolfish smile broke the saggy
flesh of the small man, a hardy laugh and a surprisingly deep voice as he said,
“Welcome to my home, my own world.”
If at this point I know what stood
before me, I would have left. Except that I had no idea. Instead of screaming
and crying and fleeing like I wish I had now, I followed the man before me. The
man who had spent his life trying to find out the inner most workings of a
person, to see where evil was and to end it; this man looked to create a utopia
of created and crafted human beings living outside of the realms of human evils
to make us the God which had failed him and his family.
All of the hallways that snaked
through the facility ran behind the cells. We were given a tour of the facility
from the side which we would be working on. The cells, as Doctor Inglehart
explained, had the opening facing the tower. The prisoners had to look at the
Tower all day within view of the few around them. A barbed fence on the other
side of the cell kept the prisoners far enough away from the Tower, Inglehart
had said, with the prisoners close enough to see what happened to those that
misbehaved. To see the ramifications of socially misbehaving or doing things
seen as evil from the outside world had lowered the prisoners’ rebellious
nature in check.
As we were walking through the
hallway, I took a look into the small frame before me and saw a small figure
huddled on the side of the cell, the side with the bars and door going into the
courtyard. The cell was only eight feet wide by ten feet long with a roof of
what would seem to be seven feet. Littered on the floor were torn paper and
destroyed books. Each of the pieces of the paper had a chicken scratch all over
them. What I could see of the man’s arms had scars up and down his forearms and
as his head moved up I could barely make out his eyes.
But I felt a hand on my shoulder. I
turned and saw Doctor Inglehart standing there with a large smile. His deep,
warm voice came out like it had been full of honey, “Come, we are almost to
where you will be living and working.”
I followed him with only a slight
look back at the window as we made slow steps away from the prisoner and his
cell.
****
The rooms we were to
be staying in were warmer than the hallways had been. The colours all played
and mixed together in a way which made me realize just how sleepy the trip had
made me. The warmth of the desert from outside wafted its way through the open
windows on the wall, revealing the ocean of sand on the outside of our home for
some time.
The other students and I all made
hasty introductions in our cramped living room with one another. Gary was the
tall, lanky one. His large hands belied the grace within them and the skill
with which had made him a promising surgery student. Lana was only a few inches
shorter than my 6’1” frame. Her auburn hair shone and she had the warm smile of
a paediatrician. Bart was the one built like a football player. He had been a
promising running back until a major concussion made him give it up, but he was
a master at physiology and the mental aspects of injuries.
I must admit, I seemed out of place.
I had only been, as I said before, a student of criminal psychology stemming
from my fascination with Ed Gein and Ted Bundy. I was writing my thesis on the
institutions of justice and how to rehabilitate the prisoners and the proper
prison build for control of those under lock and key.
We all dispersed as we looked at our
sleeping quarters. The colours followed us into the sleeping quarters. I placed
my few bags down, my few belongings which I felt my life would be tolerable
complete with a laptop, a few books and a number of pens. I had left my phone
back at home in San Jose, I didn’t think I would ever have a need for it while
I was working. My warm, bare walls caused the sleep to tug at my eyes as I sat
on the edge of my bed. I had a few hours until Inglehart had said he would be
back, so I stretched out and went to sleep thinking of the man in his cell.
****
The cool afternoon air
woke me up before the knock at my door did. As I opened it I hastily put on a
long sleeved shirt on. Bart’s wide, dark face welcomed me back to the land of
the living.
“Inglehart’s here, we’re about to
head out to his quarters for dinner.”
As the sleepiness overcame us all I
could make out of the blurriness I could see a grotesque coming closer to me.
Before the black finally came, I felt hands.
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